How much is enough

If you watch TV like most Americans then you know that we get bombarded with several hundreds of commercials day. Commercials that tell you if you don't own this or drive this- no self respecting girl is ever going to look at you . There are commercials that that ask you if you woke up this morning feeling cranky it's because you have have this disease.

My question is how much is enough? What can we be done with all of this gadgets and trinkets? Another question maybe. Why am I not enough that I have to have all of this in order to be all that I can be. According to whom? Who are we really trying to impress? what are we really trying to prove? That we are all worthy, successful being by birth?Why do we feel the need to project that on to others and more importantly, ourselves. I thought that's not something that can be taken away unless we give it away. I really think what we're all trying to do is we're just trying to buy confidence. The confidence that says I am a winner and no one can defeat me. The truth is no one can unless you chose to. The problem is we get in our own way meaning that we all tell ourselves we're losers and we're not good. We may not do it consciously but we all do it.

Here a perfect test for it. Sit down and honestly write down every negative thing you say or have ever said to yourself. Then on another piece of paper write down all of the good and positive things you say or have ever said to yourself. Then compare notes. Surprised? 99.9% of people can write down at least 40-50 negative things they say to themselves regularly or have ever said AND they can list it within 2-3 minutes!!! Don't be surprised if you list only a handful or if anything positive or good things to yourself AND it was harder and took longer to do. (When I took this test, which I got out of Julia Cameron's book. I was just as surprised myself. I listed about 60 or so negative things and only about 8 positive things and it took me a week to list those 8! What was illogical for me was the fact that I didn't consider myself to be a negative person. Surprise. This test proved otherwise.)

Finally things cannot give us confidence nor can outer accomplishments. (We all know this but we don't feel it. We all know we're beautiful but we feel ugly inside. That's why we get plastic surgery and wear pointy shoes that kill our backs!) Everything begins within, Buddha say. Inner victory before outer victory. I challenge myself and other to feel complete within themselves. Feel confident and find approval within themselves. Because we all know that a Maserati can't give it to us. Well maybe....